ohno i've been blogging so infrequently that now i have to talk about things in months and not days! x.x photos are all on fb so i shan't bother putting them up here haha laziness to the maxx

( JUNE AND JULY )

oh and after watching chris yu as a guest judge on xing guang da dao i went to listen to his songs! cos he has a really nice voice and i chanced upon this song which sums up my life HAHA. here's part of it -

爱我的人和我爱的人

盼不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人
片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人
却将你伤的最深
我不忍我不能
别再认真
忘了我的人

离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人
因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心
碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能
拥在怀中
直到他变冷

爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

oh yes and i'm off to hokkaido from 5th-11th aug!! don't miss me too much (: and everyone remember to come send me off on 19 sept at noon :D :D aahh really excited and apprehensive about london!! okay off to sleepover with xinning byeee

oops forgot, photos of my last day of work and farewell gathering :(

"I can listen no longer in silence. I must speak to you by such means as are within my reach. You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it, eight years and a half ago. Dare not say that man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you. Unjust I may have been, weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant. You alone have brought me to Bath. For you alone I think and plan. Have you not seen this? Can you fail to have understood my wishes? I had not waited even these ten days, could I have read your feelings, as I think you must have penetrated mine. I can hardly write. I am every instant hearing something which overpowers me. You sink your voice, but I can distinguish the tones of that voice when they would be lost on others. Too good, too excellent creature! You do us justice, indeed. You do believe that there is true attachment and constancy among men. Believe it to be most fervent, most undeviating, in
F. W."

just finished reading persuasion by jane austen! ah my dream romance of love once lost and found again :D much needed victorian chick-lit haha. still can't compare to pride and prejudice though. sigh i'd die if anyone writes me a letter like this!! to put this in context, right before this Anne Elliot argues about how women are the ones who love the longest and this a sad line from it - 'All the privilege I claim for my own sex (it is not a very enviable one: you need not covet it), is that of loving longest, when existence or when hope is gone!"' how true indeed haha (but let us still hope for exceptions like Frederick Wentworth :))

( PHOTOS from sydney trip in end march! )

life is still fantastic! - working with kids, driving, saxophone, volunteering at kkh, jap, tennis, and church :D also random things like going outs with much loved friends <3 (seoul garden with our half of class, celebrating pok's bday, planning gold coast trip with 2a2b, meeting army guys, church group outing, going outs with chara&xinning), importance of being earnest with taliena, and karaokeing with colleagues! :D it's also the first time i spent good friday and easter sunday in church and it's been an incredibly moving and uplifting experience. and even though sometimes disapproval from family and stuff gets me down i know that i'll pull through with God by my side :)

i started out this day with a very bad feeling haha. in fact i was in a bad mood for much of friday cos i was dreading this valentines which looked potentially lonely and painful (reminiscent of last year's haha). even cute kids couldn't cheer me up >< and many signs told me this morning that i shoudn't step out of the house - lift taking super long to come, started to rain as i was waiting for cab, the mercedes cab ignoring me haha etc.

surprisingly though this valentines was very enjoyable! can actually compare with j1s vday which was veryveryvery happy. i think i'll never forget the guys queueing up 3 hours for donuts and singing the medley of love songs sigh haha. but today was very exciting also! i got flowers and chocolates and went out with friends :D also went for jolyn's church event and xinning's church at night which reminded me very aptly of the greatest love of all :)

life has been great, 'like a dream' as someone called it! my schedule every week pretty much looks like this - work on mondays, driving and ballroom dancing on tuesdays, driving and tennis on wednesdays, work on thursdays, japanese and going out on fridays, going out and work and church on saturdays, saxophone and church on sundays :D :D it's interesting that nowadays all the people i mix around with are so much older than me haha but it's cool makes me feel young! and it's always nice to meet new people and learn new things! i'll be hosting a kids birthday party next week WISH ME LUCK! :D and before i leave here's a shout-out to all my wonderful friends I LOVE YALLLL <3

on a sidenote, in vicky cristina barcelona, scarlett johansson's character is on a quest for some kind of 'counter-intuitive love'. and on vday i realised that that's what i'm searching for too. haha let's just hope it doesn't mean that i'll forever be falling for guys who are unattractive and don't love me back HAHA. and it is true that you can't be friends with someone you still like/love. it just stirs up emotions in your heart that you thought you had long forgotten sigh.

everyday feels like a weekend now what with me lazing around and waking up at noon everyday >< okay and this is very belated but if you wanna know how i spent my xmas/new years eve...


( click here! MACAU (asia's las vegas) and china! )
too lazy to type in detail so here's just a summary of my life in this new year haha.

3rd - class farewell to ns boys! lunch at swensens and then pool! watched PONYOPONYO with poks. haha not his best that still goes to spirited away but aah i love hayao miyazaki!
4th - visited xinning and had dinner with charaa. yay love talking and catching up <3
5th - met ogmates philby, shanghui, and natalieee. we had a SUSHIFEAST haha which wasn't worth the price but still got a kick from ordering the most expensive thing on the menu haha. then met 2a2b and surprised yijun and had a sleepover yayy. it was so fun talking and playing wii and kboxing!
6th - watched AUSTRALIA with sis. one of the best movies of 2008! hugh jackman is soo handsomee. but it's true what daryl says about him being abit too hairy like a dog x.x
7th - had tennis and then went kboxing at night! it's quite funny cos after sis and i befriended these 2 guy hairstylists and a girl manicurist at the salon near our house we just randomly came out with the idea to go kboxing together! quite a weird situation but turned out to be really fun and they all can sing really well! we even had PK competitions and impersonation contests hahaha.
8th - went out with jasper to watch ELEGY! penelope cruz is really just about the most beautiful woman alive!! ate rochor beancurd yummy. haha quite sad saying farewell to all the guys :S
9th - went jobhunting with nataliee! haha the jap restaurant at kallang actually offered us jobs but in the end too dubious/shady looking so we didn't take it up haha. met chara to have dinnerr.
10th - 414 class gathering! yay it was fun playing brainless games like uglydoll at decoders cafe and seeing everyone again whee.
11th - finally met neighbours again! went for bbq and played wii till like 1am haha. there's this cool game where you're a doctor and have to perform ops on pple haha. but it was quite bad cos we kept killing patients ><
12th - went out with family and signed up for japanese lessons starting in feb!
13th - hab's bday surprise at pizza hut yayy. nice talking to class girls whee. also the day of my FIRST DRIVING LESSON! yay instructor says i'm good and i think changing gears is soo funn haha. there was an embarrassing incident but i shall not publicise it >< ask me if you want a laugh!
14th - second driving lesson! finished easy stuff in circuit and actually can go out onto road budden i haven't taken theory! so next lesson i'll be trying hard stuff like S-course and crank course in the circuit quite scared >< auntie's BBQ at night and ice cream at ECP! whee.

looking at the list, i realise my life right now is pretty disorganised just filled with random driving and tennis lessons and spontaneous going outs with friends! nevermind my life will be more organised once i settle job and volunteering stuff. and if anyone is feeling generous, I NEED A DIARY AND CALENDAR!! :D before i go i realised i haven't really written out my new years resolutions but they're just basically about making the most of this year, keeping in touch with loved ones, going off to uni with a happy excited heart, and growing closer to God! every now and then i do miss jc and the certainty of life back then but ohwell life goes on and life is pretty goood! :D